Sunday, January 31, 2021
7-the number of perfection/the 7 year itch. Ok, I just had to find a punchline to say that it's been 7 years since my last post!!
While walking home from brunch at Master Prata Alexandra (pretty good stuff btw) it dawned on me that I should curate a space to coherently document my 1,000 reflections and insights. Well, i have been maintaining my hardcopy journal.. but they've increasingly become messy scribbles and mash-ups btwn sermon notes + personal entries.
So here are my takeaways for the day:
1. On faith: Dialogue with Eileen on "Why confirmation?" But also, why not?
-POV 1: these are largely "man-made" processes and formalities. who am I accountable to- ultimately God? but also, aren't concepts like employment contacts, marriage certs somewhat similar tooo?
-POV 2: I don't feel a strong sense of conviction... how do I explain this decision? . but also...embracing faith sometimes just simply means taking that step (stab) of faith itself. not having all the answers but choosing to move ahead
-POV 3: What if I'm eventually called elsewhere? Am I ready or qualified enough to be a confirmed member? But I haven't fully come to terms with everything the church preaches! well, these seem to be coming from a place of fear
Side reflection- Maybe this is what I signed up for, when I asked to be challenged in my journey here t COOS lol. Also, everything panned out in a series of God-incidences yet again- so yes, is God speaking
2. On family
-Sitting on 970 and feeling this overwhelming sense of sadness knowing that I hadn't been there for Cous when he was down in the dumps. Reading the account in "Bruised reeds" was oddly painful and I do wish I was there, do want to be there.
3. On work
-Spending 25 mins enthusiastically sharing and discussing the MGP, health screening, preventive health approaches with an 18 year old. Is this what they call passion, a spark?
9:50 PM MASQUERADE!
