White Houses

Monday, December 26, 2011

sometimes i get really scared of the future, scared of myself and what i foresee myself becoming, scared of who i am..scared of taking the first step

there have been countless times i've avoided a situation, ran away from fears & feelings..

(one of which was going to India- a perfect chance that allowed me some 'differentiation' from my _____ and church in general, but but which turned out to be an immensely beneficial trip)

and sometimes fear boils up and expresses itself as frustration and utter defensiveness..

what can one do with things that concern your life and future?

i believe God makes things work but i feel that i've exhausted the prayer card long agoooooo.

1:21 AM MASQUERADE!