Saturday, June 11, 2011
regrets, if-onlys, moments which come back to haunt us..
sure everyone has their fair share of these- i realised i've accumulated quite a pretty amount myself.
if only i had studied harder
OR maybe if only i had NOT cared about studying so much
if only i had been more proactive in council
or maybe, if only i hadn't joined it in the first place
if only i could have been less caught up with the admin of GB Rec
such are the times you just do not want to relieve, despite having learnt much from them, on hindsight
Or even,
simple decisions or steps of faith you just refused to take
repeated brushing away of the urge to reach out & talk to someone
being too self-conscious to give up your seat to someone
not standing firm in what i believe in (or sometimes trying to be too argumentative for the sake of it)
being too skeptical and judgmental (when sometimes i can even trust something so blindly)
& then there are the those things that you see unfolding, as a consequence of your actions (or lack of it)
hi-bye-smile friends who used to be close
desperate desire for God to be made even more real
uncertainty of what my immediate future holds
maybe i've just mostly failed at putting my words into actions?
10:25 AM MASQUERADE!
