Thursday, July 27, 2006

bleah got back from dental. my teeth hurt like anything. dr sim changed t top wire and put 2 springs? no power chain and thus no colour and stuff. today was really weird somehow, partly because i didnt feel right somehow. was rather ok in the morning but towards chinese my mood started to go down. but as usual, geog cheered me up. & then pe time was when i couldnt really figure out what on earth was wrong with me. i guess after not having real PE for so long, it felt dumb to play badminton. we had fun though,& jocelyn and i lost like 2 games 5-0. haah really sorry i just switched off. she was like some star player doing the moves i never saw her do before. hidden talent? ha ,maybe (: but while i kinda forgot all the bad stuff, that single frustration still stuck to me.
it was hard trying to put it aside especially when it happens like all the time? i hate the feeling of being in the middle- not knowing what to do, not knowing what to choose. just when i thought these things were history, there came another, and another.one moment i'm hating something, but the next instant, i'll just feel like loving it. something or someone or somewhere. its always the same case. maybe its just me that's a little left of centre , trust me to be so fickle. sometimes i'm just loving everything and everyone that life brings. sometimes i just feel that life's but some chore with not much meaning at all. we're all happy people, laughing and smiling. but i really wonder if im actually happy at all? i never know when i will actually come to terms with myself