Thursday, April 27, 2006

if you call this depression.
ok lah it isnt that bad but it ruined the later part of my day. apparently bio is marked and im very sure i failed. which is definitely badd. cause im sure mr firhad was looking in my direction when he said some ppl wrote crap anwers. ok its like so many marks gone due to careless mistakes like writing t wrong thing in t wrong box and writing all the wrong stuff. and its 50marks! actually i was like dozing off halfway. big problem man. im really really lagging behind. i failed chem terribly, got a bordeline pass for chinese, failed ss and geogmap test. and now there's bio and amath left. physics made me happy though :D . anyway it really sucks to keepy worrying about grades but i just can't help but pause and wonder why im doing so badly. i mean compared to so many others who ace the hardest tests, who sleep in class but still do well & who just understand everything so quickly. disappointment often hurts the most when you disappoint yourself . maybe i should just sleep earlier and stop procrastinating and maybe no more compulsive tv watching on 55? i cant give that up x) . well well today we got to know our OBS groups & icant wait.. for next sunday. haha. my teeth kinda hurt cause i went fer dental, tightened t wire. there are so many things i wanna do after OBS. shop, change my watch strap, and just catch up on sleep. oh but there's gonna be loads of test after we come back :/
i hate all this talk about grades. i dislike always meeting with failure. i'm disappointed at always getting disappointed. but im sure this i just another passing phase. and im pretty sure it'll soon be over.