Friday, September 16, 2005

don't you realise ; what you're seeing through my eyes? can't you recognise?can't you feel that deep inside i'm lost too, alarm bells are ringing furiously, for someone to save me? right. like anyone could. why can't you stop and acknowledge, that i've changed. like you didn't.don't you just sense, that i'm not what i used to be? i'm sick of sticking on to yur coat tails, whatever that is. i'm no longer revolving so much around you. well, i choose not to. and it pains me. sometimes, i walk home, laden with this huge sense of regret. regret and guilt. of not being able to FACE you.of trying to avoid your calls, your stares. i'm really sorry, i don't know how to say what i feel. it's all so mixed up. like what they call mixed feelings. right. anyhow, i'm just SORRY. for hurting you, whatever. don't you ever just feel that too? ok, you do, but it doesn't seem to last long. say for a week or so? when your world's crashing down, all your apologies and regretful words keep coming to me. i don't see how it works. it never will for me. not again. please, just not now. know what? i just wna get it off me. I HATE YOU. right. no i don't(: . i really don't. i'm sorry. i'm really confused.

ytd's interclass. nth to say.. yes, we all go thru disappointing times. but yeah..we'll get over it quickly. OK. i don't think this helps. anw i don't think anyone needs it, considering tt we're back into our normal crazy moods again. you say, that's fast. (: . ohh. and sorry fer just sitting there and only helpin you guys by. our um, cheering. like that was so important. hehs. x) . it's back to the study mode. i'm gna TRY to be disciplined, and finish up all my hw real soon, to focus on revision. SIGH. i really wna go out tmr. but smth's nagging at me to not go. guess i hardly know myself. i'm so fickle. man oh man.
right. from today, it's bye to the old me.
hi to becoming a full fledged nerd. eew