Saturday, August 27, 2005

gee. sometimes i'm just feel like i'm this really heartless person. hahas. ok. not exactly. but i guess it kinda runs in the genes. even if sth really sad happens, be it everyone feeling sad, watchin sad films, reading sad stories or whatever.. i never fail to... keep the floodgates SHUT. yes. i can never really bring myself to cry, unless its really bad. or if someone close to me passes away. or if it's really tugging at my heartstrings. and taking a toll on my whole emotional being.. that's when i cry, mostly unseen and unheard. other thn that. zilch. i'm not really such a person. i can say.. i don't think i cry that easily. and i don't know if that's bad. cause it's like everything's being built up.. and it seems like everytime i turn to God, there's LOTS to pour out. simply cause i don't really try to let it out. sigh. and that's why i feel awkward with ppl all crying. i mean.. like i can't bring myself to cry along. it makes me feel bad. am i really without emotions or sth? the most i'll do is give them a hug, offer tissue or pat their bag. sure, talking about how i feel, no sweat. i can just go on and on. but what's with me? am i that selfish? do i only cry if it concerns me? why?
i'm just so sorry.
for not being able.. to share yur pain.
here's to the 2e peeps. esp those who cried yur hearts out.
i'm there. we'll help each one of us to get out quick. after all, what's a doctor for, CHERYL? ?
(: // :(