Thursday, July 21, 2005

EEK. i feel sick. tired. i can't care less anymore. esp with that freakin ulcer. blocked nose. and a sore throat. ok. not really. On the verge of having one.. today was fine i guess. i kinda dread school these days. everything's about being the best. standing out. chucking all forms of fun aside. MATURITY. being realistic. i say. reality sucks. reality kinda bores me. somehow.. i still prefer those sec one days.. when everyone. everything.. was near perfect. i mean i understand. people do change. thinkings do change..after all change is essential for growth right? But when it really hits you, when you really notice the distance, that empty space.. you'll finally know. that yes, it hurts. and i admit.. i'm not really big on changes.i try to convince myself every now and then, that it's alright. still. i know deep inside. i'm still longing for an answer. the answer to WHY.


anws. went hm with Grace today.. took the bus with jasmine. lol. i hate her act cute pose. haahs. TRY harder jasmine! and.. grace was like saying that maturity.. comes from the way yoo think.. not how you act.. right? i mean.. you can be the biggest joker. but at the end of the day.. its how YOU judge things.. that really matters,that really shows who you are.
somehow or rather, everything has lost its colour. to me,living each day is more like a mundane affair. everything's one big BLANK. sigh. just like YESTERDAY.
me julien n fiona had basically nth to do. hey gettit? cca time. but there's nth ta do? mhmm. so what else could we do.. but watch the dance.. hang round e tzone.. walk rnd sch.. it was nice. esp when the canteen was quiet.. and hardly anybody was around.. left drama early.. helped joc pack..HAHA. rach's locker. and cleared out my own locker too (: phew. i didn't even know that i still had my dnt/hist inside! ahh. thn we studied sci fer a while. waited fer laura & rophi.. got home at like 8.


i still love friday nights, and tuesday afternoons
and you
and me