Tuesday, June 28, 2005

gee. this is fast. one month of holidays have just gone by. like it or not. i'm stuck. back in school.. but i love tuesdays tho. we're let off like say what. one hour earlier!! (: .well at least there's still next week's youth day holiday! lol. seem to be always missing monday lessons mann. sigh. this whole camera fiasco's kinda blown over. at least my family's not that angry anymore.. Still i can't help feeling really bad about the whole thing. they trusted me. yet, i acted like i didn't care MUCH about it. i tired to shove that incident aside. i didn't bother to call. i didn't try to say sorry. i couldn't say those three simple words. or make it two. nth could come out of my mouth. i was too ashmaed. too taken in by my own set of worries. hurts. and regret. now. i know how they must have felt. i finally understand , it must have pained them. to see their 390bucks go down the drain. or rather, it's not the issue of money. what hurt most was to see those memories together;those picture perfect moments.. all suddenly disappear. disappear into the hands of some other freak. i ssay . a freak like me?
we'll drop this topic for now.
let the wounds heal..
and while i try. i'll try
to learn to say a proper sorry
and to prove
" sorry seems to be the hardest word" ..
WRONG.
Jesus- i know you'll help me.