Monday, March 21, 2005

slackin. there's no Hw today. boohoo. i don't want to go to sch. i've lost my sense of smell and taste. runny nose. sore throat. ulcer. argh. i feel so 'ranty' these days. rating on and on and on. fine. so i survived today. 1st period DNT. we worked fer a while, thn we went to the toilet, me rachel aiwee. thn we saw sian there. so. actualy we just sat down. and talked bout friends, odd number groups n all. guess i'm not alone yeah..well. its not the 1st time i've felt like that. i can say i'm quite used to it. sometimes the teasing never ends. sometimes the pain doesn't stop there. it goes on, unknown to others. some do it indirectly. that, i can't take. want to drive at sth? tell it straight to my face. . i just can't describe this feeling. sometimes it isn't there. other times, it just lingers there. it never goes. Friendships, long term ones. but long lasting ones? i've never thought of it. Friends. you're supposed to stick together. not slowly drift apart in your own small groups. Friends. A gift from heaven?
Sometimes, i beg to differ.